Fearful of There
As much as I enjoy the freedom to go on Facebook and Twitter again there was a blessed solitude in not. Quietness. Peace.
I feel the need to ease back into them. Not to immerse myself in the hustle and bustle of people I know and those I don’t. It’s daunting. Seeing all those unread tweets and updates.
The truth is I really don’t want to go back there.
To the place I was before, where I allowed these (in reality) stupid things to become ultimate in my life. I cared more about what others were saying than what Jesus had to tell me. Jesus doesn’t tweet, I have to go to the Bible to get His “updates”.
So, I’m fearful I’ll go back there. To her. I’m afraid at times to even open them up because I really don’t want to get sucked back in.
I don’t feel like I’m supposed to leave Facebook and/or Twitter. I appreciate being able to connect/reconnect with friends via both. To glean 140 (or less) characters of wisdom. To know instantly that someone needs prayer and be able to lift them up at that moment. I really just don’t want to go back there.
So I’m going at this slowly. I hope to not be on as much as I used to be. I plan also to take fasts from both in the future. Just to make sure my heart is still aligned with where it SHOULD be. If you don’t see me don’t worry. DM or email me. Check in on me. Keep me accountable.
Good for you!!!
This is the verse I would stand on…
“Everything is permissible”—but not everything is beneficial. “Everything is permissible”—but not everything is constructive. (1 Corin 10:23)
I feel the same as you do.
Be blessed!
I think so many of us, me included, go through cycles of love/hate with the social web… Right now, I’m kinda in a sort of flux. I’m enjoying the relationships I have here. The inspiration for songs. The witty banter. The amusing interaction. But I’m not running to it constantly, like I have in times past. I think I’ve found other “Things” to take the place of that passion. I’ve steered myself into more healthy directions.
But that’s all taken time and diligence and intentionality.
It’s hard, but I think you’re wise to monitor your time, and to have fasts. I don’t know what “her” meant up there, but it sounds intense. And it sounds like you’re doing the right thing.
The her is the me that allows stupid things to come before God.