Loneliness Lies
I’ve been battling loneliness for the past couple weeks. A loneliness that burrows deep into my heart and sends lies to my brain and back to my heart itself.
Yesterday, I tweeted that some days I feel like the crowd watching a monkey at the zoo, and most days I feel like the monkey in the tree watching the crowd. I feel like I’m just sitting there watching the world go by and every now and then the monkey gets a banana.
It’s been a long time since I’ve felt loneliness like this. And it was those many years ago that cause me to believe the lies that are whispered silently and effectively into my soul that just wants to be loved.
I’m not sure how to deal with these lies that were once truths. My heart is so quick to just accept them again, and I feel the tendrils of depression grabbing at me to drag me into its sticky and oily marshes.
So….I press on. Do my best not to believe. To trust in the One who only speaks truth into that longing soul. To seek Him. I remind myself over and over that they are but lies.
I can relate to this. I have bouts with loneliness that stem from being so far away from our family and friends. Its like we’re strangers here, and sometimes that weighs heavy on me. Praying for you Prudy. I can relate. Hope that means something : )
*hug* praying for you. though you may be in this season of loneliness… know that you are never alone.
Hug friend… huge hug… you’ve been on my heart the last couple of days especially… this explains a little bit more why. I’m so sorry you are hurting… i love you my friend. Texting you now
Ugh. I feel this all too often. Definitely, definitely praying for you – know you are not alone! I think this is one of the biggest areas where women receive spiritual lies. Keep pressing on, girl. One day, our Rescue will come complete – and there will be absolutely no more loneliness.
Sending you a BIG, HUGE, GINORMOUS Hug… it is always hard to hear (read) when someone is hurting. I’ll be praying of you… you truly are a treasure.
You weren’t kidding about how similar our recent heart cries have been. Praying over you, new friend. That HE will speak louder to the deep parts of your soul. That you would know fullness in him in those dark and scary places. Thank you for sharing–I think when we share, that’s the beginning of crushing the lies that we are completely alone in the lonely places.