“I’m so tired losing my hope. I’m so tired of sleeping. I’m so tired of forgetting to trust. I’m so tired of settling.”
My sister-in-law, Nina, penned these words and as I listened to the song the other day and they gripped me.
As strange as it sounds, giving up hope is difficult. A heart’s natural tendency is to hope. So when we force it not to, it goes all or nothing.
As much as I don’t want to give into the vulnerability that hope calls for and reality’s whispers of disappointment, I am tired of not hoping, of not trusting.
Kick starting our hearts to hope again, to trust again isn’t an easy task. And frankly I’m not sure how it happens.
All I know as I listen again to her words, is that something needs to change. Whatever intentionality needs to happen for my heart and my mind to begin hoping again.
I really don’t have a good tip for kickstarting hope. Hope for me is something that’s always been in the back of my mind and that’s what’s kept me going through a lot of situations that would ordinarily made me jump in front of the nearest bus. But I have noticed when I’ve focused on hope that it’s slowly grown within in my life. So it might be very similar to trust.
Hope is my word for this year. I have no words of wisdom for you…yet. I keep praying that God will teach me how to hope and to know how to live hopefully. I think it’s definitely a process. Let’s compare notes, OK?
Yes, lets.